I Need to Get Out of Here!!!!

I'm getting tired of the same shit but happening every single day. I go to school, go to work, come home, play some video games with my brother then go to bed. Every. Single. Day. I need a change. I don't want to go to school anymore even though I finish this year. I want out of this small ass town. I want to make music all day. I want to be in Seattle, living with my brother. I want a group of friends I see on a regular basis. I just want to live the life I want without a care!!!

As you can tell, I'm in the middle of a mental breakdown and all of you get to witness it. SCORE!!!

I just don't know anymore. Life is getting to the point where it seems meaningless unless you are doing what you love while being around those you love. I live by myself, my social life consists of talking to the people I work with at work, and I don't have time to do any music (which tears me up inside).

Alright, rant is over. Having this outlet is kind of nice because no one I know reads this and I don't have to worry about someone reading these and trying to sit me down and have a talk about how concerned they are.

Remember when we were young and we couldn't wait to grow up?
But now, all grown up, we look back and ask why.

What If?

Have you ever asked yourself the question "What if?" Not for anything specific. Just ask yourself in general and just see what pops up in your head first. .... I have no idea where I was going with that. I should probably go to bed. Hopefully I'll have a better post or maybe I can finish that thought. Would be nice. But you never know what you will seek within your thoughts and dreams. Wow, I really need to go to bed. Night everyone.

Side note: This is just funny

Coheed and Cambria: The Afterman

Hey,

I'm back with only 30 seconds between the two posts :D. As some of you know, my favorite band is Coheed and Cambria. They just recently released their latest album The Afterman: Ascension. This is part one of two for this album. The regular album is pretty awesome. Domino definitely reminds me of music from  the In Keeping Secrets album. I have mainly been listening to the Demo album that was released with the pre-order of their Deluxe Box. Eight of their songs are demos from the actual album and the ninth song is a demo of a song that was not release. I have found the demo album to be the best of the two. It is a bit more raw than the studio album and it allows you to hear the power and emotion of each song. This is an album you want to by.

The Afterman: Ascension- 5 out of 5

The Afterman: Ascention Demos- 6 out of 5

Another Fun Day

Hey guys,

Welcome back after a month of reading the same crap over and over again. I have been extremely busy lately with classes and work. Never thought it would be this tough to balance the two.

Yup, that's it for this post :P

It Only Takes One Comment....

It's interesting how I just shut down when I'm pissed and around people. When I'm alone, I yell, cuss, throw shit and put holes in doors, walls and other stuff. But when I'm around people, I stop being myself. I stop talking, I don't make any jokes, I smile when people ask me stuff, and I'm only nice when I have to be like dealing with customers. I even shut down around my family which is even worse because they know when I do and they always ask "what's the matter?" But what makes it even worse, I never want to talk about it. I keep it bottled up. I have about 10 years of bottled up anger that has never really been expressed and I don't really know how to. I just beat myself up inside until I see how hurt I am and then minutes later, act like nothing is wrong. I'm not sure if that's healthy but it's a process. A comment was made today towards me and I heard them say it. I was pissed and shut down. It took me three hours to finally be able to smile but I still feel wounded from my own torture. And I will wake up tomorrow and act like nothing happened.

That rant was actually kind of therapeutic....maybe. I don't know. Thanks though for listening.

Bazinga

Hey guys, I'm back from my trip home for my mom's birthday. It was a lot of fun. We went to a park and rode the swings then went to the casino and lost a ton of money :P

On another note, The Big Bang Theory season 5 came out today so I went and bought it. Unfortunately, Fred Meyers didn't have the Blu-Ray version and I really didn't want to wait until I could get it so I bought the DVD version.... a little disappointed but the show is still funny as hell.

I also pre-ordered the new Coheed and Cambria album The Afterman. It comes out October 9th and I must say, a month is just too long to wait. I am a child among the fence.

I will have a review for both once I finish looking through them.

Posting From My Phone

Gotta love technology. Of ourse, my phone is a little slow so this post will be a bit short. Wow, I've never typed so slow before :P. So the studio move is coming along nicely. Once it is all done, I'll be locked away for days....ah crap, I have work. Maybe I'll call in sick (if anyone from work reads this, it was a joke :D). I also want to sit down with a friend's boyfriend and work on a track together. The guy is a pretty good DJ. 

Alright, well this was my first and last post using my phone. What would have taken 2 minutes to type, took 10. It's driving me nuts! 

Plus side: can't upload a picture from my phone. Oh what joy!!!